Looking For Guidance in the Woo Woo

I have reached a point in my life where I want someone to tell me what to do and tell me everything will be okay. I don’t want a therapist, I don’t want to work through life’s many challenges and I don’t want to make any more decisions. Over the past year, I have outsourced this critical thinking to clairvoyants, tarot cards, palm readers, gurus and shamans. 

Yes, I am kidding (I will not blindly follow the cards or mystics or anyone else), but it is kind of nice to have someone else tell you what you need to hear every once in a while. Sometimes they are spot on, sometimes they feel wildly off. Only time will tell. Below are some of the highlights. 

Clairvoyant: I am an old soul, with blue energy and I don’t like people. 

Tarot Cards: I am carrying a burden (something that is challenging at work like a big project) but it will wrap up in Spring and it will result in very good change or outcome 

Palm Reader 1: I will have three great loves and three kids in my life (it was caveated that the great loves might not all be romantic and the three kids might not all be biological)

Palm Reader 2: I will be married twice (which the second palm reader delivered with a shrug that indicated that I was heading for a divorce).  It could be that I was one of the last readings of the night and she was done with all of the drunkards

Shaman: A really good opportunity will come my way in 6-18 months, I will sell something big in about 3 years and in the meantime I need to focus on making the most of the quiet time (including investing in younger self me and my relationship with Martin)

Energy Reader: She sensed a dichotomy between my mind and my second chakra.  I need to listen to the little kid in me and focus on a passion project I have been thinking about for a while (something similar was also said by my Shaman) 

And finally, while not from a guru, shaman or other worldly individual… my year of the snake ended with a terrible cold and me spending all day Sunday in bed and on the coach on Monday. Hopefully I have officially shed last year's old skin and am ready to embrace the energy and transformation in store during the year of the fire horse! 

Magic in LA

Just a quick note so I can remember this experience when I am older. This past week my company had its Sales Kickoff in Los Angeles. The Events team always outdoes themselves with a week full of events, content and business. And this year was no exception; dare I say, it was magical?

Our Wednesday Night activity was at the Magic Castle. I am not a fan of magic or magicians, so my excitement factor was muted to put it politely. But it really was a once in a lifetime experience. For those who aren’t magic followers, the Magic Castle is a super exclusive, members only club, where getting in is nearly impossible. And we had the whole place rented out for the night.. I saw three magicians doing their routine, had my palm read (twice) had a tarot card reading and enjoyed a few hours with my coworkers. And while I still don't love magic and will never trust a magician, I will say I was very entertained. 

The next night doubled down on magic, movie magic that is. We had Universal Studios fully rented out for just our company. The evening started off with a studio tour (which was my favorite part) followed by free rein of the park and most rides. With only 400 people, I was able to go on every ride without having to wait in a single line. It was a bit odd to be one of three people in total on the Mummy Ride… but I got over it very quickly. Theme Parks and the two hour long waits are officially ruined for me. 

Side note: Universal Studios is not for those who get motion sickness. I was okay on most rides, had to close my eyes on Transformers and almost puked after Harry Potter. Others weren’t so lucky. Thankfully Harry Potter was my last ride so I didn’t miss much when I left immediately after. 

2026: A Year of Little Expectations

I love seeing friends and family. I love spending time with those that I love. I love planning and cooking and enjoying a big meal with people. But turns out my excitement and energy has a limit, and my general five day rule for being a guest no longer than 5 days also applies to being a host. After five days of hosting the extended family, I needed a break.  After ten days I needed a change of scenery.  And after fifteen days I needed a lot more than just personal space and another vacation. This mama needed a break from responsibilities and commitments.  

I guess it shouldn’t be surprising then that this year I am setting very low expectations and no personal goals for 2026.  So while there are things already planned for 2026 (including a trip to the five national parks in Utah, a summer break in Italy and Christmas in Europe) I am not committing to any personal growth, arbitrary goals or otherwise. 

• I might get a new job, get a new job title, or get new responsibilities at work…. Or I might win the lottery and retire all together

• I might write in my blog a little more… or a little less… or I might finally draft up the great American novel of a 40 something overworked mom living in a big city but dreaming of settling down in small town in another country (I might have watched a few too many Hallmark Christmas movies this year)

• I might work out and I will maybe be a bit stronger at the end of the year when compared to today, but maybe not 

• I might visit a new country, I might travel solo or I might go on a silent retreat

• I will probably read a few books but no where near the “one a week” I averaged in 2025

• I might join the kids in learning a new language on duolingo. They are learning Italian, I might finally make progress on my German

• I might finally find a hobby

• Who knows, I might end up taking the Bar Exam just to see if I could pass

Even if I do nothing but enjoy the time with my family and friends, I will call 2026 a success.  In the meantime, please enjoy a picture Alva drew of me:

50+ Books in 2025!

I officially did it! 52+ books in a year:

Strongmen, Ruth Ben Ghiat 

Far From The Tree, Robin Benway

The Collected Stories of Lydia Davis, Lydia Davis 

Nuclear War, Anne Jacobsen 

Bel Canto, Ann Patchett 

The Anxious Generation, Jonathan Haidt 

Shattered, James Patterson and James O. Born

Men Without Women, Haruki Murakami 

All Fours, Miranda July 

Olive Kitteridge, Elizabeth Stout 

American Kingpin, Nick Bilton 

Martyr!, Kaveh Akbar 

The Metabolism Plan, Lyn-Genet Recitas 

Breathe, James Nestor 

Modern Poetry, Diane Seuss 

Careless People:  A Cautionary Tale of Power, Greed, and Lost Idealism, Sarah Wynn-Williams

Heartwood, Amity Gaige

White Tiger, Aravind Adiga 

Outline, Rachel Cusk 

My Stroke of Insights, Jill Bolte Taylor 

10:04, Ben Lerner

The Vegetarian, Han Kang 

Lincoln in the Bardo, George Saunders 

The Lamplighters, Emma Stonex 

Ghost of the British Museum, Noah Angell 

Marble Hall Murders, Anthony Horowitz 

The Usual Desire to Kill, Camilla Barnes 

H Is For Hawk, Helen Macdonald

A Man Called Ove, Fredrik Backman 

What Kind Of Paradise, Janelle Brown 

Abundance, Ezra Klein, Derek Thompson

There’s Nothing Like This, Kevin Evers 

First Lie Wins, Ashley Elston

My Brilliant Friend, Elena Ferrante

Mystery in Rocky Mountain National Park, Aaron B. Johnson

The Thursday Murder Club, Richard Osman

Your Brain on Art; How the Arts Transform Us, Ivy Ross and Susan Magsamen 

Adventures in Sand Dunes, Aaron B. Johnson 

Adventures in the Grand Canyon, Aaron B. Johnson 

Charmian Kittredge London: Trailblazer, Author, Adventurer,  Iris Jamahl Dunkle  

Die With Zero, Bill Perkins

Strange the Dreamer, Laini Taylor

Adventures in Zion,  Aaron B. Johnson

The Wall of Winnipeg and Me, Marian Zapata

Man's Search for Meaning, Viktor E. Frankl 

Butter, Asako Yuzuki 

Bright Young Women, Jessica Knoll

Maggie: Or a Man Walks into a Bar, Katie Yee

The Colony, Annika Norlin

The Maid, Nita Prose  

How To Dodge a Cannonball, Dennard Dayle

And 3 Bonus Books, read out loud to the kids during the year: 

Order of the Phoenix, J.K Rowling 

Half Blood Prince, J.K Rowling  

The Deathly Hallows, J.K Rowling  

Germans in America - Part 2

I honestly didn’t think it would ever happen again.  After Martin’s parents last visit to the US, Annegret stated that the trip was her last.  She was getting too old to travel (she turned 86 in June) and the last trip resulted in pneumonia so her stance was warranted.  But somehow, through powers of persuasion, and maybe a little guilt, Martin, the kids and Meike convinced the entire Breuer clan to come back to San Francisco for another year of Christmas celebrations.  

Martin’s parents landed on December 15 and Meike, Regina and 15 month-old Rasmus joined on December 18.  

For the holidays we planned on the usual traditions: Christmas Eve at the Norwegian Seaman Church, followed by (Irish) coffee and cookies and dinner at our house, Christmas morning unwrapping presents, Christmas Dinner of crab and raviolis at my parents’ house, including Christmas crackers (aka poppers) and finally wrapping up with Boxing Day Dim Sum…all before the German contingency headed up to Arnold for a six night break from the city and ideally for a bit of skiing. 

We had our bumpy moments: Annegret and Ernst both tested positive for Covid the week before they were supposed to fly and they were informed at the airport that their premium seats were overbooked, Rasmus arrived with a cold, Meike brought the rain with her and come to find out eight people + one baby in our small apartment for more than five days is too much for me to handle. 

But we also had some really great moments and bright spots: The overbooked flight for  Annegret and Ernst resulted in an upgrade to Business class, Martin showed once again that he is a true baby-snatcher and great uncle, the rain from Meike in San Francisco guaranteed fresh snow for us at Bear Valley and a resulting two amazing days of skiing, and the kids were super excited and grateful for their presents from both Santa (a Lego Train Set for Oskar and a racing bicycle for Alva) and from the parents (each got a Mighty music player).

Other fun memories of the holiday break included: introducing the kids to Griswold's Christmas Vacation, enjoying the performing arts at both the Symphony Deck the Halls event and the San Francisco Nutcracker, taking Granny out to lunch at Nations Burger with my parents and having so much time with the kids during the break. 

German visit number two wrapped up with our traditional New Year’s Eve fondue dinner in Arnold and an early bedtime… the Germans had an early afternoon flight home on New Year’s Day and we still had to drive down the mountain to get to the airport in time.