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Languishing, quiet quitting, depressed, baby blues (just kidding, not that one). Call it what you want but I am in a funk, a rut, in a mood. I have the case of the Monday’s except it is every day and even the hopes of an upcoming vacation can’t fix this situation. If, 200 years from now, a social anthropologist read my blog to understand our society today I could imagine them thinking “man, this woman went from living her best life to being such a depressing and disappointing bore”. And to be honest, they wouldn’t be wrong.

Come to find out I am not alone. The New York Times has a great article about this and HBR did an article about all of the uncertainty in today’s world.

What I have realized... it all boils down to the fact that I normally get energized out of the daily routines by planning for and looking forward to upcoming events and trips.  And in today’s world, and too many cancelled plans, I have stopped looking forward to things in fear that they might get cancelled. 

The best example, Erin and I have had our trip booked to head back to Rancho La Puerta since in October of last year for September.  And I didn’t allow myself to get excited about it until the night before I actually left since I was afraid something would happen to make me cancel.

Spoiler alert: the trip didn’t get cancelled and was even better than I could have asked for.

Second spoiler alert: While my trip didn’t get cancelled, unfortunately the one Martin really wanted and needed had to be cancelled. Not due to covid but due to lack of power. Martin had planned a week-long stay at Timber Cove but our solar power system inexplicably was drained of power when we arrived Saturday night and refused to charge the following day (due to the overcast skies). Unwilling to be stuck on the coast without power for a week was just too big of a risk and one he was not willing to take. Here’s to hoping he gets a much deserved break soon too.

Not sure what the overall answer is, but I need to figure something out soon